?serene's life?

Monday, January 31, 2011

brrr~~~

i'm still as cold as ever...

i need hug hug...

anyone??

lols...

i'm sounding like a despo or something sia...

asking for hugs everywhere....

1st is on fb...

then now here...

what's next?? twitter??

too bad i don have a bf to gimme hug hug... lols...

dono why keep thinking abt this kind of things recently...

i think i muz be crazy la!!!

i sound like a freaking despo sia....

wth~~

forget it...

i think i shall juz curl up under my blanket tonight and stop sounding like a freaking despo...

but i have to admit that this kind of weather is good too!!!

hehes...

loving it and hating it at the same time...

contradicting feelings...

if not for my lousy nose that get nose block all the time..

i would definitely not hate this kind of weather de...

hehes...

and yes!!! all the major projects are over ald...

only left with one more ITB...

then left abit more nia...

so no worries... =p

can enjoy my CNY le!! ^^

but todae super lazy...

have been slacking and nua-ing since i reached home...

neva do tutorials oso...

don care le la...

think i shall go snuggle in my comfy bed and blankie and go to my lala land ald... hehes...=p

nights world!!! cya tmr!! lols... XD

writtern @10:18 PM

Sunday, January 30, 2011

这段时间我是不是一直都在欺骗自己呢?

欺骗自己对你的感觉呢?

其实我自己也不知道...

我还以为自己已经放下了对你的感觉...

或许是我错了吧...

一直到昨天做工时才发现我始终还没放下...

不知道为什么昨天知道你比我早放工时

心里好就有了一些失望的感觉

因为知道那样就不能和你一起坐的士回家...

就少了一个能和你聊天的机会...

即使我想要在车上睡.. 也不能靠在你的肩膀上睡...

可是也没办法...

只好忍着心里的失望继续把工做完

放工后也不知哪来的力量, 既然发了一段简讯给你

可是你没回我... =(

等了好久好久好久都没收到你的回讯..........

在车上时觉得很累

原本想要睡一下的.. 可是不知为什闭上眼时又睡不到...

可能是太习惯在车上有你在身旁了吧

所以没你在身旁感觉怪怪的..睡不着...

我对你太依赖了吧...

我想是时候我也该戒掉对你的这种依赖了吧...

就让我慢慢学习, 适应身旁没有你...

我想我们之间也是不可能的啦

我也相信你也是不会喜欢我的啦

一定不像我喜欢你般的一样喜欢我

只不过是我自己一个人一厢情愿的恋情...

一个不会开花, 不会有结果的恋情...

所以要我自己放下对你的感也是一个好的事情吧

这么一来我也不会一直去乱想

改天做工时看到你也不会这么心痛, 这么不开心...

可以以一个真正朋友的身份和你说话... =)

好吧...我想我就说到这里吧

说得越多我就一定越放不下对你的感觉

我下一次会再看到你应该是两个礼拜后吧...

我一定会用尽这两个礼拜的时间来放下对你所有的感觉

酱我就可以把你当一个朋友来看待了... =)

就让我一个人去痛到受不了

想到快疯掉

死不了就还好.....

我就不相信我会笨到忘不了

赖着不放掉....

我总会把你戒掉....

writtern @9:19 PM

my nose feels like it is dropping off la..

the weather is so cold todae...

but is a nice weather to slp...

feeling so slpy now...

think i shall slp early tonight since i oso gt no mood to do all my tutorials..

haven even touch any single of them...

shall chiong them all tmr ba...

hopefully...

tmr still gt HOM front desk practical test...

haven even really go and read through all the notes lo...

die...

have been slacking todae..

haix...

too much energy too much time spent on project until now don even have any more mood left for hw and other things....

even blogging now is like taking alot of energy of mine lo...

considering the fact that i ald wanna slp le...

lols

then tmr still gt dental appointment...

sian..

coz the practical test need to wear formal...

then lazy to bring shirt and change... coz lidat will then need to bring alot of things...

so means i have to look like a crazy woman and wear formal to dental...

some more dental appointment in the middle of my sch hour...

have to go during my break and rush back sch...

sian TTM!!!

sure imma gonna look like a crazy woman tmr rushing here and there de lo... =/

and tmr is the submission for the integrated project ald...

like finally~~~

one more project down...

den left with ITB nia...

its also a good thing that this project going to be over soon le...

coz a lot of conflicts within grp for this damn project lo...

so yea... good thing... hehes....

after ITB will be the final exams...

den year 1 sem 2 will be over le!!

means HOLIDAYS le!!! yipee!!! ^^

lols

but i have to reali work hard ald la...

GPA like shit lidat...

still thinking of holi...

haix...

im hopeless sia...

lousy student...

wahahah...

shall work hard to pull up my GPA... =)

writtern @9:06 PM

Friday, January 28, 2011

currently waiting for turn to present for LMS...

bored much~~~ XD

after this den everything will be more relax le...

hehes...

todae oso the dateline for the BMGT project...

finally one of the heavy stone off my shoulders...

can at least breathe now....

then come monday the HOM-FABM integrated will be due too!!!

YIPEE!!!

then i will only have ITB project left~~

wahahha... =DD

can enjoy CNY TTM le... wahahaha...

LOL... =p

but after that will be the final exams... so sian~~~ =/

writtern @1:36 PM

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

currently having a damn headache...

and damn blocked nose...

seriously la!! wth is wrong...

keep getting blocked nose these days lo...

been a week that i have been having blocked nose ald lo...

my body/health feels like its getting from bad to worse lo...

my face oso la!!

i look so totally like a freak now lo...

so damn freaking many pimple and acne on my face....

making my face look so god damned red... T_T

damn ugly now la~~~sian~~~~

ZZzzzz...

T_T

haix...

i think i better go orh orh now la...

slping late oso not good for face...

later more pimple come out then i die~~~~

den will get more depressed ald lo...

so ya~~~

NIGHTS!!!!

^_^

may my face recover soon and be free of pimples and acnes... =)

writtern @12:00 AM

Friday, January 21, 2011

currently rotting and wasting my time at LMS...

so damn sian...

hiax.... =/

don like friday....

waste of time lo... studying for LMS...

rather sleep at home lo...

and still gt project for it...

don feel like doing but no choice...

me don wanna flung my LMS when my GPA is ald like shit....

all i can say is.... NP reali bo liao la!!!

they think i nth to do isit... like i don have any other projects to do lidat lo...

sian ar~~~~

all the projects going to due soon le..

all due next week le...

then i can officially declare that i am free from all the bloody projects... ^^

but come to think again, after all the projects then exams coming soon le...

aiyo~~~ sian TTM la!!! T_T

den still need to work... tired siol...

think i shall take another break from working to prepare for my exams soon ba...

think i will tell mike after chinese new year ba... =p

cmf he will show me that face when i tell him de lo...

say that i have only come back from my study break de...

coz that time common test period ald took like one month off le...

sure he will ask me to quit study de lo...

den work for him...

which is wat he is basically saying every time i tell him i busy with studies when he ask me to work more days...

he so damn gl..

don like him TTM!!

he think i wat sia.... machine or robot...

damn him...

me every week work one day for him very good ald lo...

some more i is work full shift eh... 12 hrs lei!!

like hello?!!?!?! he think i so damn freaking free ar...

no need to do hw... lol..

last week i fall down he oso like no care lo...

no care about how i am den nvm la...

i don care... no need his concern...

anw oso wont die from that fall...

only got bruises all over my right legs and hand nia ma...

死不了...

then he still say until i like purposely want to fall down lidat lo...

say " aiyo~~ serene ar~~ next time don lidat lei... "

WAT SHIT LA!!!

damn him...

don want care abt staff is ur prob... not mine...

not happy just FUCK OFF!!!

go and hide in ur crappy office and stare at the com for the whole dae...

lol...

hmm... how come i am complaining now~~

LOL!!!

must reali be too bored ald la... =p

shall stop now...

hehes...

anw think i will change job after new year or during the school holidays if i can find a job ba...

writtern @2:37 PM

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

currently rotting in MAEC tutorial...

so damn sian..

haix...

hungry and sleepy much...

stomach is growling... =(

waiting for the class to end in like another 35 more mins..

all i can think of is food now...

should i eat mac later or juz grab some bites at old chang kee??

LOL...

dono mama gt cook lunch anot...

shall call home later after class...

if she neva cook then probably buy mac go home eat ba..

LOL!!!

ok... seriously im talking crap right now~~

haix...

but cant be helped la...

its hard to think properly when im so damn hungry with my stomach growling every few seconds...

haix...

ALL I WANT NOW IS NOTHING BUT FOOD!!!

ROAR~~

writtern @12:20 PM

Monday, January 17, 2011

almost a week since i never post le... wahahaha.. =DD

went back to work on the 8th, sat...

didnt blog abt this coz was too angry and totally forgot abt it as seen from the previous post...

lol...

anw all the old staff quit le lo..

now only left me...

damn sian...

that time work oso nobody to talk to lo...

haix... but gt new staff la...

so shall make new frens...

otherwise i think i will die of boredom when working de lo... =p

then the rest of the week was basically the same...

all is either hw or projects...

so damn freaking no life la!!

then sat when to work again... on the 15th...

full shift again as usual...

damn tired...

coz only slept for 2 hours...

6am to 8am nia...

haiz...

when to meet mag and the rest of the clique in the morning...

wanted to eat breakfast with them de..

but me late abit den the queue very long lo.. then me neva eat... coz they all oso eat finish ald wat...

den talk talk awhile den i go home le...

need to prepare to go work...

while they all go USS to celebrate xinyi's de birthdae...

sian lo...

me want to go oso...

dying to go to the USS for like a damn freaking long time le....

but mama don wanna bring me... T_T

NVM!! I SHALL SAVE UP AND GO MYSELF ONE DAE!!! =)

so went home den cook maggie and fast fast eat...

den go work le....

was so tired lo...

like walking zombie lidat...

den break time after eat le when to slp for 30 mins lidat...

wake up still feel so slpy lo...

but at least better la... gt rest dao abit...

so not that jialat...

den evening damn alot of ppl lo...

somemore outside raining... cant open outdoor...

both good and bad la... =p

so quite busy lo... good thing is that it helped to keep me slightly awake...

bad thing is i ald tired until wanna die ald...

juz when i thought things counlnt get worse enough...

i fell down lo!!!

was helping fren to take ice coz gt she drinks order mah...

and she new oso...

den i have to slip and fall at the pantry...

haix... =(

so god damn paiseh la!!!

somemore that time gt customer making payment there...

then i saw the customer's de face...

he like totally shock dao la!!

quite funny lo...

but that time ald like paiseh until wanna die ald so no mood to laugh.... =p

the whole bucket of ice all spilled on the floor... haix...

den all the ppl there at the pantry all like rushed to me lo...

esp shirley... she at the cashier there...

den before i knew it she was like in front of me asking if i ok anot and trying to help me up... =p

hehes...

so now i gt blue black all over my right legs...

lucky i is fell sideways to my right side...

cant imagine if i were to fall flat on my face... =p

reali la!! sauy TTM la!!

work so long ald oso neva fall down before...

then ronny told me that when i fell, the sound was very loud...

like the whole astons can hear lidat...

T_T

paiseh TTM sia!!!

lucky i not those kind will cry easily de...

esp not in public and in front of ppl...

den worked until closing lo...

then took cab with shirley, ah fu and liang ann home...

was super duper tired then den asked ah fu if he can be the last that time anot...

coz normally i will be that last one de wat...

den he say ok... wahahahah... =DD

den sleep all the way in the cab until reach home....

had a quick shower den sleep again... hehes... =p

then sunday as usual lo...

project meeting in sch again...

tired still~~~

think i shall go slp now~~~

still very tired~~~

dono wat is wrong with me lo... hehes.... =p

actually still wanna blog abt something else de...

but i wanna slp le...

so shall blog abt it tmr ba..

anw it is gonna be a emo post...

coz after i blog abt it...

imma gonna forget everything...

forget him...

forget the feelings... =p

alritex!! good night world!! =)

writtern @11:02 PM

Sunday, January 9, 2011

gonna do a quick blog before im off to do all the bloody projects and tutorials...

and be warn!! this post is more of a complain post...

so juz press the little red 'x' button on the top right hand side of ur screen if u do not have to patience...

otherwise it will be ur prob if u get irritated by this post...

i don care... i seriously don give a fucking damn...

todae was like a super duper uber bad day la!!!

damn...

firstly, sunday is SUPPOSED to be a family day or a day where we get to rest at home and catch up with all our homeworks and tutorials!!!

not a day to meet up for projects!!! SO NOT!!!!

and i have to oversleep and be late coz i slept at 2am due to me working...

and reaching home so god damned late coz i was working closing and was the last one for the cab ride with the rest of my colleagues home... =(

on top of it i was so damn freaking tired...

my eyelids were like so damn heavy la!!! =(

then we have to go the whole day WITHOUT ANY LUNCH!!!

SERIOUSLY!!! THIS IS LIKE SO WHAT THE SHIT LA!!!

cant u juz let the rest of us eat???!!!!?!?!?!?!?

we know that u can stand it to skip a meal but the rest of us cant!!!!

esp suyu!!! she is sick for godness sake!!!

can u let her eat something!!

like hello!! she has ald turn up for the project meeting despite being sick ald...

yes... i know she was late... but it is seriously NOT HER FAULT WHAT!!

its like she cant help it oso de wat!!!

if she can choose of course she will choose not to be sick wat....

which SICKO on earth would choose to be sick for no reason?? LOL!!!!

and the only thing that u know is to ask us to do and for ideas...

we all hungry like hell ald how do u expect us to come up with ideas for the project...

cant u like let us eat something first??

P-I-S-S-E-D-!-!-!

also... everything we do oso wrong!!

but u cant say out where exactly is wrong and want us to redo again!!

shit u la!!!

i think i have enough la...

gotta go and finish up my tutorials otherwise tmr i die~~~ =/

no point wasting too much time blogging and complaining abt a person that makes my blood boil....

writtern @7:41 PM

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

currently in ITB tutorial...

it is so damn freaking bored....

don even know what the teacher is talking about lo... =(

sian ar~~~

sleeping soon le la...

haiz.... T_T

dono wat to write ald la...

damn lazy...

shall post again tonight ba... =)

writtern @10:14 AM

Saturday, January 1, 2011

finally 2011 has arrived!!!

woo~~~ XD

may the new chapter of my life begins...

and new memories and stories to be created... =)

and all the bad and painful memories be forgetten...

ok, maybe not really forgotten, but buried away...

never to have myself be reminded of them again...

coz all these unwanted memories have taught us valuable lessons in our lives in a way or another...

2010 is a memorable year for me in alot of ways...

it is the 1st time that i have a 'proper' job at tanglin club...

as waitress... and meet really good and cool colleagues and managers...

oso the place where i met Hady... =)

not like the previous job that i have a mac when i was 14...

it is the year that im finally free of braces... =DD

LOL... =.=!!

it is my 1st year in poly and it is a totally different experience from pri and sec sch life...

both in a bad way and good way...

i also gained a ah bu (jiamei) and ah pa (tian hong) this year!! hehes... =p

love them muchies muchies!! ^o^

the year where i have chiong alot... and i mean damn damn alot of movies with my friends... which i have never before...

the first time where i really fell in love... =) my 1st stead, my 1st kiss... LOL... =p

the year where the number of quarrels with my mum was alot lesser compared to my sec 3 and 4 life...

the first time i chiong work so hard for a whole month... at astons @ cathay... 6 days a week, 12 hours daily, just for the sake of buying a new phone... =p

where i reali meet a super good and cool supervisor, Joel, who is a good superior of mine as well as a good friend where i can easily talk to and relate to... =)

reali met alot of good friends at astons, like wilson, yu xiang, lydia, karen and alot alot and damn lot more... hehes... ^^

it is also the year where i fell out of love for the first time...

don like it.. =(

really hurts alot like hell... ='(

the first time i broke something at work... a glass ice cream cup at tanglin club... =p

my first time where i lost my belongings while outside playing with friends... lost my phone and wallet and everything... LOL!! =p

the year where i crushed on someone which was totally impossible between us and have to let go... =(

the time where i fell so deeply in love with someone within the short time of two weeks but he juz cant seem to get over his ex and i have to let go... again... ='( and it hurts damn damn much....

but i have no choice...

but all these are over ald...

those good memories i will keep...

those bad memories i will keep too... coz they have all taught me valuable lessons in life... =)

now imma gonna forget abt the past...

let the past be past...

and work towards the present... =)

coz wat is done cant be undone...

there is simply no such thing as the undo or backspace button in our lives...

let go watever i have to let go...

all those unfruitful relationships...

forget those that i have to forget...

those special feelings that i have for those special someones that i have met in 2010...

let those special feeling be over written with the purest of the purest feeling; friendship!! =)

and learn to keep these people in my life as friends and nth more... juz good friends... =)

writtern @4:03 AM

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!

may all of us had a great and memorable 2010... even if we don... we still have 2011 now!!!

look forward!!!

may all our happiness and joy in 2010 stay with us and those sadness and painful memories go away... forever and never to be returned~~ hehes...

may 2011 be filled with fun, joy, happiness and laughter for everyone!! and may the new chapter of our life begins!!!! =DD

had an enjoyable dae todae with friends to countdown for new year...

meet up with Daniel, Kai Lun, Kelvin, Kenji, Justin, Jing Ting, and San Chang at 5.30pm then train-ed to town...

dinner-ed at Just Acia at dhoby and walked to cine after that to slack until our movie start...

usual 'routine'.. slack at the arcade...

den watched The Tourist at 11.15pm...

hehes...

justin's idea...

coz he say he wanna tell everyone that he watched movie all the way from last year to this year...

LOL!!

hehes... XD

so, our countdown was a quiet event inside the cinema.. =)

after movie ended, went to catch the train home....

ate supper, or should i say breakfast at marsiling there de coffeeshop with Kelvin, Kai Lun, and Daniel.. then Zi Wei just acc us lo....sit there and talk talk...

our 1st meal for 2011... Lor Mee...

LOL!! XD

after that Dan then walked home with me then walked back to marsiling there to ton at ZW de hse lo...

wahahaha...

actually me oso wanna ton at ZW de hse de lo..

but mama don let...

haix...

wth sia.. =(

nvm... still will gt chance de...

and i am so going to find the chance to ton at friend hse de!!

hehes...

tmr going pool with the few of them again..

hehes...

i think i going broke soon le la...

gonna go back to work soon le...

probably next week ba... =)

writtern @3:31 AM