hiash.. :(

morning didnt reali started out right...

partly due to all the stupid things i thought abt ytd that made me lidat i suppose...

and also previous night that small boy in the hse was watching dvd in the middle of the night ard 12 after he finished playing computer...

not that it is my business...

shouldnt even have bothered with him in the 1st place lo..

then can save myself from all the anger...

but the thing is he gt MYE tmr...

asked him to go slp early..

then he told me is the last episode ald..

so told him to watch tmr after he came back from sch...

it not like the ending of the show will change after one night or the dvd will disappear what!

and the thing is he watch before ald lo!

then he said something...

but coz i was in the kitchen...

so didnt reali heard clearly what he said in the beginning..

only heard that last part coz i was walking towards that living room..

and this is what i heard: “讲够了没有, 够了就 diam"

it is fine with me if u wanna treat me lidat..

not like i care...

so wasnt talking as much as usual during PMKT lecture..

partly was due to suyu and vien talking abt their outing tonight which i wasnt joining..

after PMKT then was sitting at the water feature there waiting for LAM tutorial classroom to be open...

suyu came and sat beside me..

then she suddenly ask me "so how's u and **"

wah! i can tell u.. i was totally shocked and unprepared for that qn la!

and i could feel like there a hundred like stings stinging my heart at the same time.. pain!! :(

those stupid things that i have tought of the previous night hit me again like a hard rock..

hiash... :(

became more emo than before.. not that i want it but i could have helped it...

after sch when home..

so wasnt reali in the superb mood for any talking..

just wanna go somewhere and rot..

then mama have to 'complain' to me abt the door and everything..

machiam im some kind of contractor that could help her fix lidat...

like HELLO? IM JUS A 17 YEAR OLD.. WHAT U SERIOUSLY WANT ME TO DO?

then told her to get the contractor and tell them to fix in my dead voice...

i just wanna get through her asap and go rot somewhere in the hse...

then she gave me this lecture abt how im showing her black face nowadays just coz "i thought i have grown up and cant be bothered with her"

like wts la!

cant she read my face and actions that i'm not in the mood?!

that i want to go rot somewhere and to be just left alone to think...

after that, she still went into this "treat ur mum lidat and next time u will have retribution when u get old and have ur own children"...

reali cant be bothered with her la!

if she wants retribution to befall on me then so be it la!

not like i care lo...