time for grumbles... yea like again.. i know.. :(

u can skip the post if u are sick of my all time grumbling abt my life and family...

yea.. that's prolly what u should do now...

see the little red cross at the top right hand corner of ur screen...

yep! juz hover ur cursor there now and click once on it... thank you! :D

so its two against one at home against me going to church?

whats the big deal with me keep going?

its not like imma asking ur to go oso rigth? since when ur oso wont one to go in the 1st place...

HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE WHO DONT UNDERSTAND AND STILL WANT TO JUDGE ME!!!

esp when the person was suppose to be the one the SHOULD understand and know me the best!

totally DISAPPOINTED in her...

keep on harping and trying to deter me from going to church..

is not like we are strict buddist in the 1st place... and plus the fact that i have always considered myself as a half free thinker...

SO WHAT'S THE BIG DEAL?

u keep on insisting that it is a cult group.. :(

but have u even stop and asked urself y i like going there and keep going back to church despite whatever u said and threaten to do?

the ans is so obvious... NO!

so here im telling~ prolly u wont even get a chance to read this though.. but still.. haha!

at least when i go there i have something to do!

lots of friends that will care abt me and ask me how was my week and stuff lidat...

show me all the care and concern that i always wanted..

it is such a big family there where people all know what is happening in each others lives and care for each other, pray the best for each other..

and home? what abt it?

i have totally nth to do at home..

cant even laugh freely at the top of my voice... talk louder abit u gimme that irritating stare!

like what is wrong la! shouldnt home be somewhere that i can express myself freely?

like real... i feel like im more of a prisoner at home...

otherwise will be seeing u and sister 'cold war' everytime!

DO U EVEN HAVE THE SLIGHTEST IDEA HOW SICK I AM OF ALL THIS!

sick to the degree that i have stop caring abt whatever that is happening to ur...

that i have gave up hope on this not happening anymore!

u are always so concern and buried deep in ur work... yea i understand that u need to work to feed me... for that im grateful... but surely u have that few seconds to spare and ask me how was sch and abt things that im doing right?

but sad to say no u dont...

can u even see that im not happy in sch...

no u dont...

all u can see is the mask that i try to hide myself behind and believe in whatever u see...

at least in church i can be who i am! free to do anything! no need to hide myself behind a ton of masks and pretend to be someone that is not the real me...

whatever... u never understand me and i dont think u will either...

u wont even come across this post either... and i don care!

all i pray to God now is that things at home can improve... that's all im asking for right now :)

to end on the lighter note...

imma emce-ing for the NYE event!!

woots~~ XD

excited much yo!!

have never mcee-d before in my life!!

looking forward to it!! :D

fine la... seriously no mood to happy at the moment..

waiting to go out later with boon and tkl!

hopefully they can make me smile!! :D

and i think cmf will de!

they are like the few true and best friends that i have! :D

very glad to have friends like them!

can talk anything under the sun, moon and stars with them!

esp that PAKCIK BOON! haha! :D he cmf gonna glare at me when he see this! =x

gonna watch breaking dawn later!!

highly anticipated for it!!

cmf will make me forget all my unhappiness!!

pls breaking dawn please be nice to me alritex!!

high hopes on u!!

WAHAHAHAHA!! :D

gonna prepare ald! otherwise later late =x