seriously =.=

been troubled by all the shit and the thoughts that shouldnt have...

irritated much

was thankful when sch finally ended.. meant some peace and time for me to think through things..

had an awesome music blasting session on the journey home..

my own 'therapy'.. HAHA! :D

with my awesome beats earphones! simply AWESOME!!

totally deafening! which was what i needed..

loudness to the extent where my ears cant take it and my brain couldnt function..

couldnt think of things besides focusing on the songs simply coz the music was too loud to be ignored... louder than my own thoughts that keep echoing in my head non stop...

after that felt a sense of peace and calmness and somehow knew what i was going to do abt all the problems..

everything felt insignificantly small and soft to my ears which was almost half deaf by then...

for church.. i think i somehow know what i should do abt it and how imma gonna do it...

for that ridiculous thought.. i still have no idea how to stop it but i think i can control them better now... its reali ridiculous la! thinking abt him again.. didnt expect that i will be lidat again.. esp when almost 2 years had passed since i gave up... lol. =p

but so why is it coming back now? esp after knowing that little information that was told to me?

why? for that i have no answer... so i shall just have to figure out slowly or wait for it to die off again or for me to cut myself away from that feeling and simply just see him as a friend like how i i had that almost 2 years ago... :)

so yep.. another one down..

and for internship.. i still gt another 2 more weeks to ponder on.. so no rush yet i guess? :)

its just me panicking and making myself stress up for no good reason..

stupid!

haha! :D

and for school.. i think i can just endure pass it ba.. no big deal.. i have beem through this before...

i can survive the ordeal...

in conclusion, all the problems are peanuts to me!

i can survive them!

NO BIG DEAL MAN! :D

*note to self: yea! serene! keep the positive attitude and u can shine despite all the shit things and shit people in ur life! :D JIAYOU!! HAHA! :D