and now its like so rare..

and even my brother has noticed it

baby have always told me that he's busy..

but never told me what he's busy with..

never asked him for details or demanded that he tell me anything

but after sat night i think i have an idea what he's busy with now..

maybe not exactly what is happening but a rough idea at least
or maybe something close

and same thing.. im not gonna ask for details..

coz i know that's what he needs now..

space and time to settle his stuff 

i know he will tell me if he wants to tell me

when he wants to tell me

when he's ready to tell me
:)

that's the least i can do for him now..
until he's done with everything..
yes.. i know its not gonna be over that soon like what he told me
and i will wait for him :)

all i ask is that he stay safe..
like what i told him ytd
i dont care what!
please let him be safe..

like what we talked about the other day
humans are judgemental..
yes.. i do judge people too..
that's the traits of a human..
but me being me..
i look at both sides of the picture most of the time if not all..
and nope! im not gonna run away!
although he said he wont blame me if i did when i joked the other day...
but NOPE! that's not happening :)
gonna wait patiently for him regardless how long this is gonna take him

and of course there's no way im also gonna pretend that i dont know him!
not when he is so god-damn important to me now
how can anyone forget someone that they loved so much..
someone that gave them so much to remember..
feelings that they have never experienced before..
no way man..
yes it may be better for me if that's the way..
i know it..
but it's concerning me..
so this i think i should get to decide myself :)

love him sososo much!!
even more than i thought i am capable of.. :)