No idea how to approach..

Because truth is I myself oso dono what I want, what to do, how to do.. 

烦啊!! 

It has to be now.. 

Like I said.. I have dragged it for too long..

I don't want to allow myself to drag all this for anymore longer. 

Coz I don't know when will I have such chance and courage u call it? to face this upfront. =x 

Argh!! 

Point is... How la??? To start?! :( 

These kind of things are never my forte to start with. =x 

I'm those kind of person that will choose to keep quiet and hope things will just go away by itself. :( 

Yeah.. I know it's a super bad method of handling things but that's just me like it or not. 

But maybe.. Just maybe.. Not this time. 

Time to face everything. 

Whether I like it or not. 

I.NEED.TO.TALK.THINGS.OUT. 

I need my answer(s).  

I can't put my faith on those something unknown like the song that is on my playlist now. 

I can't live on such sweet nothing. 

Not that there's anymore to start with. 

How long has it been ald. 

I've lost track ald. 

Plus I need to know what he thinks and feels..

How long has it been since we actually reali spent time tgt? Tell me more about it. 

It's always his... Not that I expect him to put me first always but sometimes at least?

I may seem okay with things. Yeah I mean I also know not to expect too much. 

But hey.. I'm a girl afterall. I also want to be treated like a princess sometimes. No? 

The way he doesn't look at me straight and touch me like before... 

It's just.. Idk how to put it.. Breaking me up inside mentally.. 

I really don't know what he thinks and feels now. 

And it's driving me nuts!! 

I've to get my thoughts back and organized. 

As much as I don't want I have to force myself to do it. 

People are telling me the same thing. But there's the reason why I'm still holding on. 

But that can't be the only reason. 

I need concrete reasons. 

Not like this. 

Even if I have to force myself to do it. :(