Death. 

The thought of my loved ones leaving me.

How fragile life can be. 

One can be alive and joking with you and the next they are gone. 

Just like this.
The person that you may have love and care about so much.
The person that may have meant the whole world to you.
And in the blink of an eye they are gone. 

No longer around. Anymore. Forever. 

You can no longer see them, touch them, talk to them, joke with them, play with them. 

No more. Nothing. 

All you can do is just to miss them.
In all the ways that you can find. 

Silently missing them in your heart, crying out loud when you miss them, cry yourself to sleep while missing them, staring at the photograph taken long time back remembering and reminiscing that moment back then.
That's about as much as it goes. 

There's no way for you to make up for any of the mistakes you did to them. 

No way to undo any regrets and guilt you have towards them. 

Nothing can be done. 

They can only live in your heart. 

Until your heart stops beating. Or maybe not. 

I may not be close to the family but to ask me not to feel sad about it is impossible. 

Afterall he's still part of my family. 

Attending his funeral last night has got me thinking so much.
Should really learn how to treat people right and treasure them while I can.
Always have been a lazy person that don't take the initiative to reach out to people.
Even those that mean so much to me. My own family. That special someone. My friends and buddies.
Should really start learning how to treat people right.
Should no longer stay in my comfort zone and instead move out.

I'm sorry I can't be there to send you on the last of your journey today. Please go in peace and leave no worries behind 1st uncle. 

You will be missed.